&maybe, we were made for eachother.

oh snap.

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 12:23:04 GMT

it was AMAZING to see you lot last night :]

wooo hannah!

Thu, 22 May 2008 15:56:02 GMT

so i think im going to actually go to school starting this fall.
i really want to get my RN going, and can't without actually going to school.
plus it would be nice to no longer "barely make it".

& im excited for hannah's grad party.
i miss you guys.
even though I saw Catie the other day..
BUT STILL.

terrifiedsalmon.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 19:42:38 GMT

haha beth.
those iranians are nuts.

do you believe in ghosts? - yuh. i doo.

HOLY POSTS BATMAN!

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 19:47:55 GMT

http://youtube.com/watch?v=oQp7Id8iRA4

Thu, 03 May 2007 01:03:37 GMT

SO.. here's the MO-Scoop.

we gave him to a gentleman (he was an uncle to my boss's daughter) who claimed he loved dogs and has already a stbernard; said he couldn't wait to see him and how he was so excited. THIS MORNING, my Mom got a phone call from the Will County shelter saying that they've had Mo for a week, that its taken them so long to track my Mom down. The found him roaming around the town, went to all the farms in the area, and nobody claimed Mo as theirs.

After playing phone tag all day with several people, the 'gentleman' now does not want to give us his info, saying that he took Mo to a no kill shelter and that he said he couldn't take care of the dog. This means he had Mo for about roughly 4/5 days, and he didn't think it was necessary to give us (or try) a call to say he couldn't keep Mo anymore. In the mean time, supposedly dropping him off at a no kill shelter. BUT HERE'S THE KICKER!.. The 'gentleman' still has all Mo's paperwork, and if he really did take him to a shelter, dontcha think the shelter would of wanted his paperwork? HMMMM.. !!

I'm so upset. This is so much stress on SO many people's plates, that was never needed. I feel terrible because now my boss feels its her responsibility to track a lot of this down, and I feel like its mine. I hate that Mo is now going through so much without doing anything wrong. I'm hating that this guy just couldn't call us and tell us he didn't want to keep him, and on top of it.. HE doesnt even want to talk to us personally - he'd rather play all this phonetag business. It's doing me in something terrible.

I'm telling you. I think this guy just dumped Mo somewhere and is now feeling guilty because in some way, its coming to bite him in the butt. I hate that people can be so inconciderate sometimes. ily Mo :(

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 15:01:17 GMT

lol i like how just me & catie write in here now. ohhh well.

chalk fun with little man :]

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 01:41:11 GMT

holycow.

the wiggles will be here thursday august 19th
presale tickets go on sale the 30th, someone want to buy them for me.. i mean benn? lol

DO IT!
http://www.ticketmaster.com :]

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 18:56:34 GMT

my little superstar

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 19:28:57 GMT

i like a new boy.
he's pretty swell.

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 18:09:03 GMT

k, just following what your friends are telling me to do.
i'll leave you ( and your livejournal) alone.

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 19:04:05 GMT

im not finding anything just yet on good apartments.

i've a year though right?

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 21:00:39 GMT

come with me
stay the night
you say the words but boy it don't feel right
what do ya expect me to say
you take my hand
and you say you've changed
but boy you know your begging don't fool me
because to you it's just a game

so let me on down
'cause time has made me strong
i'm starting to move on
i'm gonna say this now
your chance has come and gone
and you know...

it's just too little too late
a little too wrong
and i can't wait
but you know all the right things to say
you say you dream of my face
but you don't like me
you just like the chase
to be real
it doesn't matter anyway

i was young
and in love
i gave you everything
but it wasn't enough
and now you wanna communicate
go find someone else
in letting you go
i'm loving myself
you got a problem
but don't come asking me for help

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 15:49:58 GMT

I'm taking the easiest way out that I can.
I give up.
I've told you time and time again that I miss you, yet you still think I hate you to pieces.
I've run out of words to say.

You're not a thorn in my side.
You're a part of me that I don't ever want to forget, but as said before, when I talk to you I ache inside.
I've said things on here that weren't very nice, but I'm not a jerk.

I do care.
I still care.
I'll always care.

Plain and simple.

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 01:54:33 GMT

why do I always tend to say the wrong things at the wrong time?

I need to stop writing out of anger.. I really do.

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 22:03:57 GMT

So things have been quite crazy lately.

Zinnia has been spending a couple weekends with us and doing things with the family, its quite nice I must say. We made taffy apples this sunday after apple picking. Last we had our xmen marathon, which was also a grand evening.

Friday we all (being Heather, Meagan, Justin, Beth & I) went to see Grudge 2. I had the best time I've had in well over a year. I laughed so uncontrolably and smiled the entire time. We went to Steak&Shake after and watched the underage kids get kicked out, how delightful. We started remembering old times we each had had in a s&s and it made me a bit sad. ohwell. Then on Saturday we went over to Catie&Hannah's house. MAN was it a blast. I once again laughed my butt off and I wouldn't change that for the WORLD!.. Thanks for inviting us all over that day Catie, and thanks Hannah for REINVITING us over when Catie told us no.

My cellphone got shut off today, and I'm not sure if its because Daniel is pissed at my Mom asking him to start paying for it since he owes her money, or if its just because we had such a high bill and its not been paid. Either way - I'm phoneless and that makes me nervous because what if something happens with Benn in the car and I've no phone and I'm in the middle of nowhere?.. Serves me right for signing up for something with someone who didn't intend on sticking around.

Speaking of which, I plan on visiting Maxwell in the end of December. Would be lovely if I could stay for more than 3-5 days, but work overcomes play so I have to be back before newyears, which blows. I'd love to see him wasted, only so I can give him crap and hopefully get him to stop drinking. My ex Chris has been trying to talk with me again, which is kinda crazy but in some ways not. I kinda miss the guy.. in some weird way. I've been sitting down staring into nothing, thinking about ex's alot lately. Where they are, what they're doing, am I missed? Its weird when you sit and think of it that way and 9 times out of 10 I'm sure that I'm not, but you cannot sit in selfpity forever. Good times are always had with each person God brings into your life, and as someone has said to me before God may bring people in your world for a reason but he will also take them out for a reason and you can't fight it.. or something like that. I can't say that I don't miss any ex of mine, but I also can't say that I'd change the way things have gone in my past. Its time for a new, and Maxwell is definatly bringing that new along at a very nice pace. I've cared for him forever, so its only a given that we try things out correct? Longdistance relationships are mega hard though, but I think if we try and stick things out I wont be a kinda girlfriend anymore.

OH! &&I'm so way excited for baptisms.. Who's all coming? Let me know so I can make sure you know where to sit and such :]

xo.

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 01:27:32 GMT

Time for an update..

This past Thursday I had another date. His name was Kyle. Totally nice, kinda weird. He took me to see The Black Dahlia, then took me home. We talked some and things that he had said made it seem as if he had wanted to hangout a bunch more. I've not spoken to him since.

We just had a Small Group Conference this past week so I have been working nonstop since Wednesday, and I dont have another day off till this Friday. I'm totally beat - emotionally and physically.

I recently completed my membership, but have not had my dialogue with Janet to conferm it. I still need to be baptised, which today I signed up for (Nov 1, new community @ 7 pm). I also have to volunteer, so I am signing up for etierh Tuesday or Friday, or both even, to help out in Promisetowne (the promiseland for the weekdays, pretty much a free daycare for volunteers). I signed up to be a Greeter, so we'll see if I get feedback on that one. I'm really glad that I've moved further spirtually towards God. I'm going on the right path right now, even when its kinda boring or rough, I'm still moving along swiftly.

I cannot wait till next Sunday. We're going apple picking with APAT&the girls :] and then two Sundays from that we are going to be picking out our pumpkins to carve. I wonder if I will allow Benn to get into his pumpkin or something.. Maybe i can find a big enough one.. We'll see. :]

Don't forget to check Mom's photobucket for pictures!!

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 14:43:32 GMT

Well then.

I was definatly stood up last night.
I feel like such an idiot.

you don't deserve that crap. I must of if it happened.
Whatever.

Tomorrow Kyle is taking me to a movie.
I need to decide what movie like.. TODAY.
Hopefully I won't get stood up again.

and he said he was excited.. bullshit.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 19:31:45 GMT

if you don't like being hurt then please don't stay.

I'm really excited for my date tomorrow, as is he, or atleast thats what he says lol. Yesterday at work I was told that I'm confident in myself. I really don't see that, but someone else does so does that make it true?

I just finished my membership for the church. I feel like i am lacking as a christian, its not even funny. I've not even been baptised again. I really need to get that done.

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 21:26:13 GMT

I'm here in the library once again.
Why am I so ashamed to cry my eyes out in the library computer lab?

So much time was put into something for it to end on the worst note ever. I cannot even speak about him without dying inside. Its stupid. Why miss someone when they just bring you down in the most horrid ways? I know it was the best choice on my part to put in my word of it being over and I guess it was mainly me who wanted to end it. Its hard to be with someone when you can't be trusted. Its hard to be with someone when you feel like your sexuality is the thing thats going to ruin everything. I hate it. I did research and made note of being deleted from his past, or as it seems. I removed all the friends who didn't care to speak to me, including his. Why keep people around who don't want to speak to me anyways.

So what do I do?
I hide.
I stuff it all down into my toes, and walk it off.
I cover it.
I have a date on Tuesday, and after he takes me to dinner we're going to eat. He'll then be coming back over to watch Nip/Tuck with me.
I am happy about that.
That makes me giggly inside.
He says that he wants to kiss me&i dont think i will turn it down.

I'm tired of feeling lonely.
I'm tired of feeling like I'm not good enough for a guy.
I'm tired of not feeling like I'm worth a thing.

Someone give me a reason to think otherwise.
I think this date will pick me up greatly.
Why remember something when that someone doesn't need you around?

my gift to you

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 19:39:21 GMT

I'm hurting more than I need to be over this.
Someone has told me recently - "Tabitha, you never stop caring, no matter how hard you try..".

Why can't I just stop?
Its causing me more pain than it is to anyone else.
whats done is done.
I understand that, but why can't things go back to how they were?
Late nights and not a care in the world.

when you take the trash to the curb you don't bring it back in the house.
.. i always hated that saying.

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 18:47:18 GMT

Strange to say I miss him.
Nip/Tuck was lovely last night.
I need more than just one friend outside of the family.
Edward NEVER lets me watch the girls.. BOOOOOO!!

Michael and I don't hangout.
JOhn sucks still.
Max is so busy, can't come out yet.
Jim.. Hes cool, but works weird hours.
Moose is a jerk. Never calls. LOSER. :(
Greg is also weird.
Jay is a fag.

I work new hours now... well MORE hours, not just new. It will help me financially atleast. I did my resume for Uncle Dannys place, but its still not good enough. MOM&I will be hopefully sitting down with it tonight.

Daniel and I went WAY over our minutes, I guess mainly my fault.
I feel like since I have told him I dont wish to get back together anytime soon that I am now nothing more than an acquaintance. That really hurts. I guess its my fault though. Things just weren't working out, and I know if we started talking agian I'd really miss him and would only want to be with him. For us as a friendship, it still wouldn't be any good. Either way, he still owes my Mom all that money, and yet he is making me pay pretty much the entire phone bill. Pretty ballsy if you ask me.

I'll leave it at that without blowing my top.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 19:18:51 GMT

hotdamnson.

nip/tuck was amazing last night.
I hung out with Michael.
He was whacked out on energydrink&fell asleep on my couch.
WAY CUTE.

we'll see how this goes.

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 16:12:45 GMT

Well.
Today I work

Heather got fired.
Beth and Justin only have a couple more days. I'm hoping Mom lets them stay anyways, because they are trying REALLY hard and I cant stand to see them go. Its way too much fun having them here.

Benn doesn't like to nap.
I want to hangout with Moose more, but hes so damned busy.
Maxwell is busy too, and ufck his phone service for shutting his phone off.
John is a big jerk and is allergic to cats.

thats it.
OHOH&&new layout.

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 20:04:18 GMT

Nip/Tuck is on tonight.

and thats all I have to say. :]

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 14:08:39 GMT

So we've gone over on minutes, by a lot. a lot a lot.
I'm really tired.
My boss's daughter, who Im friends with, is having a surprise birthday party today. Bennjamin and I are invited.
Benn keeps waking up at 6-630 am every morning and its wearing me out.
Mom is going away this weekend as of Saturday night.
My back hurts.